Shattered

There are times in our lives where life fades from color to black and white.  Moments that are etched in our minds never to be forgotten.  Seconds that feel like they last an eternity.  Tiny blips on a radar where parts of our soul are shattered.   One minute we are going about our day and in an instant, something changes. Life alters in some way.  For almost three weeks I’ve had writer’s block. I’ve…

Grieving Option A

Today I listened to a life changing podcast featuring Sheryl Sandberg.  For those who don’t know who she is, she’s the COO of Facebook.  She lost her husband very suddenly while on vacation two years ago.  The podcast was heart wrenching as she spoke about her loss, her grief, telling her children their father was gone, how her children taught her lessons, and how they began to live life again.  But, what got me was…

Unapologetically Me

I’ve been called a bitch.  I’ve been told I’m unattached.  I’ve heard I come across as hard.  Too loud, too quiet,  too opinionated, too persistent, and too pushy. My best friend and I have a running joke about me being a bitch because I tell it like it is. It used to bother me.  I used to care so much about what others thought, I would wear different personas depending on where I was or…

Dear Diary

  Dear Diary,   I realize you’re not a diary, but let’s pretend!  I never had a diary as a young girl, but feel like I could use one today.   Today was one of those days.  No, let me correct that!  This has been one of those weeks.  No that’s not right either!  And here in lies the problem.  I’m all over the place!   I’m in my second to last semester of college….at…

A Perfect Marriage

“A perfect marriage is just two imperfect people who refuse to give up on each other.” -Unknown     When we started dating we were kids.  We didn’t think so, but we were.  It’s crazy to look back that long ago and realize that some of the conversations we had about the future came true.   Perhaps being such good friends first made the difference, but we always knew this is where we would end up.…

Mirror Gazing

When I joined the ranks of motherhood I think looking at myself in the mirror became something that happened on special occasions.  Like when I had to leave the house!   The thought of really looking deeply and seeing myself is a foreign concept.  Think about it. When was the last time you looked in the mirror and really saw yourself?  I’m not talking about glancing to make sure there’s nothing in your teeth.  I’m not…

Life Unraveled By Childhood Cancer

September is Childhood Cancer Awareness month, so I’d be remiss to not address the elephant in the room!  I’d have my cancer mom card revoked if I didn’t use my platform to bring some attention to this evil.  The problem is, what angle do I use? Do I throw statistics at you? Do I tell you that 96% of Federal funding for research is for adult cancers, leaving only 4% for children? Do I inform…

My Heart Is Full

“My heart is full.” That’s what this woman I never met before told me Friday night. My heart is full. So simple, yet so profound. I was at a concert with Tristan, his best friend, and his best friend’s mother.  Before the main show started, we were lucky enough to be part of a VIP experience and get a short acoustic concert by Jason Aldean. While we waited,  a couple stood next to us and…